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I went around the world today
and this is the place I choose to stay
and for the first time in my life
I feel as if I’ve chosen something right
I can’t return but that’s fine with me
cause there’s no place I miss nor place I need
now as I’m here I can’t recall
if I have even been elsewhere at all
I’m gonna stay here until the tail end
until I’m sure what’s real and what it is that I pretend
and then I will regret the things that I have not done
I looked back at my life today
and I saw no moment I’d love to replay
well maybe my life’s been short
but I really doubt that it’s worth wanting more
I’m gonna stay here until the tail end
until I’m sure of what’s mine and who are those I should call friends
and then I will regret the things that I have not done
the dust on my eyelids would mean I’m old
would you clean it off
the rust on my golden teeth would mean I’m gone
away from all the thing’s I could not have done
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when I woke up and you were not there
I knew it was for real and not what I had dreamed
cause in my dreams I held you very close
and stood by your side till the morning light
with my voice so calm I killed you with this song
and now with your heart on my palms
I can see where I’d gone wrong
I locked myself away from everything
that reminds me how weak and vulnerable I feel
since I’m alone everything has changed
what once seemed alive
now seem to die
oh, my lord
where did I go wrong
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night wears on
it buries my thoughts of remaining the person that I have been
now I want to lapse in the arms of stranger
cause he doesn’t know who I am and where I go
and what I hide inside my mind
and I hope he knows how hard it is to feel alone
when everyone’s so close around
I feel safe when no one’s around me and my heart
I know that it’s wrong to stay
wherever you are if it’s time to go away
but everything I’ve learned seems lost as if it had been burnt
as someone’s coming closer
I cannot understand if it is water or it’s sand
that makes me feel parched with thirst
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I thought it would be easy not to lose my mind
every time you slip out of my sight
your thoughts fill my mind
your words fill up my mouth
now I want to die
now I want to shout
there’s nothing much I know
there’s nothing much I care for
but I know for sure that I want you to stay the same
I’ve been here for years but now I’m lonely
suddenly I’m lonely
without your embrace I feel so empty
and it makes me feel
that there’s no use to search for what’s not missing
the only thing that matters is that I have found myself in you
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I’m just a figure in a math
and I vent all the wrath I’ve ever kept inside my heart
for being just a part
superfluous
never sought for
without a halt I run the path
which leads towards the last of new beginnings of my life
I’d follow the starlight to see if it could somehow be my guide
I need no one to be mine
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silence hides under every noise that we make
and I feel undefined when you call my name
let’s keep ourselves clean
and pretend nice just for tonight
let’s keep ourselves clean
and avoid lies just for tonight
those times I told you that there was no other side to everything I lied
and I had your trust until my face turned red and full of blood
let’s keep ourselves clean
and pretend nice just for tonight
let’s keep ourselves clean
and avoid lies just for tonight
and I can’t go back
to place I’ve come from
but you can be sure
I’ll look for you
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I know that the things I’ve done cannot be undone
and the words that sometimes come out wrong are those that mean the most
even though I tried to show you dear the pointlessness of fear
you’ll be suffering until you find out for yourself
I feel like an empty boat in open waters
I need your weight to hold me in stormy weather
I know that I was more than close but now I’m further
than anyone has ever been
no one is where I am now
no one sees that our life is nothing more than a fragile moment of waiting death
I feel like an empty boat in open waters
I need your weight to hold me in stormy weather
I want you to hear what I have to say
so let your fear go don’t make it stay
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still, at the river I stand
with my feet deep in the sand
and my love soon to end
and as the wind strokes the place in between
two flowing tears on my cheek
I stop to believe
I am drowning slow
drifting on my own
and I seem to lose
anything that’s true
waves are building the shapes never seen
there’s a house that I know I have seen
as a child I had lived in
so I dive without taking a breath
and let a tidal bore swallow my head
eat my flesh till I’m dead
here I am on the bridge to nowhere
and there is not a thing I can share
since the only thing felt is despair
as I gasp for my breath I can swear
I have never before been more scared
as I move both my knees start to shake
both my eyes cannot see
I decay while my conscience gets eaten by shame
so I cast off my skin
I break away to the solitude
I’m on my way
I leave this place
I leave no trace
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she was sad when we first met
she had someone missing
it made me want to fill that space
I didn’t have to see her eyes
to know when she was looking
and a single look my head spin
and she keeps it spinning
all the lines that shape her
are getting blurry all the time
she’s slowly disappearing
I know I do not have the rights to judge the way she treats me
but I’d really love to be sure that at least a little part of me
can make her head spin
and that it could keep it spinning
there’s nothing I’ve seen
really nowhere I’ve been
but I don’t need anything
since she’s with me
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slowly and quietly she burns in the flame of illusion
slowly and helplessly she turns into slave of delusion
when I’m sleeping she wakes me up
I am begging her to stop
she pollutes me with a single touch
I am begging her to stop
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keep my hands tied
in spite of all the things I have to do
I just want you to know
that I’m ready to try to take the blame for all the things I didn’t do
and did not know
silence is louder than my voice
even when I scream they still don’t hear
I’ll wait till it’s over
till everything’s pure
maybe then I’ll find my way back home
all the trees and all the leaves
standing still until you leave
but when you leave trees drop the leaves
leaving me so alone
I’m not sure anymore
if I belong in this world
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